I have all kinds of mornings, sometimes I wake up and i don’t step outside my front door I stay in bed all day and watch videos on youtube, play Smurf Village on my IPAD and draw stuff in my sketch pad, I refer to them as the days when my mind goes to sleep and my body is left to find something to do.

Then there are days when I wake up and I feel like I can conquer the world, those days are few and far apart but I do get them. “That which is like unto itself is drawn” A simple statement I got out of my latest book The Law of Attraction based on the teachings of Abraham. The better you feel, the better you will be, the more kind thoughts you think then kind things happen to you, I cannot explain what’s been going on with me lately I almost feel like I’m becoming religious. I downloaded the bible on my IPAD and read it every day, I Lauren Dunn have never consciously by my own free will picked up the bible and read it, not only am I reading it but every thing in it is starting to make sense to me, I have some advise for everyone who reads my blogs whatever your reasons for reading it.

Smile more, think positive thoughts, do not think anything that is not good, it isn’t easy but you will grasp it, because you attract unto yourself whatever you think, so if you think “No I do not want to fail this exam” you’ve allowed the thought of failing your exam to enter into your thoughts and even though you do not want to fail your subconscious has already told you you’ll fail and you believe it.
Don’t watch the news if it makes you sad, you can be conscious of whats happening around you without knowing the details, the details are what affect your subconscious mind.

I got a FaceBook email from a high school student who said she felt like she was being bullied a group of girls kept making her feel uncomfortable and she didn’t want to go to school, I responded to her by telling her as long as they didn’t touch her she didn’t have to retaliate, she should try being nice to them talk to them as she would a regular class mate and ignore the things they were saying if she ignored their bullying they would eventually stop. But if they didn’t and she still felt bullied then she should speak with her mom about getting a transfer, that is a polluted environment that will only make her angry and defensive in years to come.

Surround yourself with good things, a good cake needs good ingredients and so does good people, I agree some of us are stronger than some and our environments do not affect our outcome but that’s because we have a beautiful mind.

Keep Sweet and Smile more even if you don’t believe it:

“Hope is the dream of the Walking Man” French proverb

xoxoxo Lauren O Lauren

Cheating can be such a painful thing if you aren’t the one who’s cheating, I have regretted every single time a relationship ends and I never cheated I wanna do it over and CHEAT!!
Every Man cheats on his woman, and it’s a scientific fact that EVERY JAMAICAN MAN cheats on his girl, unless he’s Gay then he has no girl therefore he wouldn’t cheat on her, In a discussion I was participating in at the Hairdresser the other day we all agreed that a woman who was cheating on her lover every now an again maybe once a year, found that her relationship was easier to handle, I know for a fact that if you have a boyfriend and there’s another guy whispering sweet somethings in your ear it can be quite fulfilling in areas where your relationship falls short.

Whats the point of all this, where am I going with this blog? I’m trying to say if you cheated on your boyfriend there’s absolutely no reason why you need to tell him and absolutely no reason why you need to feel guilty about it and if you find yourself starting to feel guilty, sit down take a minute and remember every single time you’ve been a good girl and tried to be a wonderful girlfriend with your ex’s or with any of the past men in your life, do you remember what happened next? Exactly! Don’t let it eat you up It’s a different world today than it was years ago allow me to demonstrate:

A Couple years ago men used to leave us at home while they went out to work, now they ask for an independent woman up front and they leave us at home pregnant and never come back, the result is we are raising tomorrow’s men as single angry women. Do I sound Bitter? Good I am.

An article came out in last weeks “Sunday Times” a UK paper my boyfriend feels obligated to read every Sunday about Polygamous Couples being on an all time high. They are regular every day couples who have put the definition “Open relationship” into a whole new meaning. Regular couples are having affairs with the approval of their partners, Husband and Wife having dinner while the husband’s girlfriend is telling them both about her day at work, the wife won’t be at dinner tomorrow because she’s having dinner at her boyfriend’s house.
It’s a new playing field its a new world, before Men could have as many women as they want, there was nothing we could do about but whine to each other about how slutty the other girl looked.

I am encouraging all women, if you have the urge to cheat do it, worried about getting caught? “Say it wasn’t you unless he has you on tape, the guy you had the affair with you’ve never met him before, he’s a crazy psycho who’s been calling your phone and not saying anything for the past 3 weeks, say you’re scared and start crying. Problem fucking solved why should you give a fuck that his heart is breaking, how many times have you had your heart-broken? get over it big guy another one bites the dust. If that still makes you feel guilty think of the hearts he’s broken on the way to yours, Cheating is a dam competition it just so happens that Men beat us to it every single time, don’t worry about it.

So if you’re wondering if you should tell him that you cheated, here’s my advise don’t fucking tell him he’s probably cheating on you as you read this blog.

xoxox Lauren O Lauren

PS to all my Jamaican readers remember my show is on every Tuesday at 9pm on flow TV Channel 100.

Sorry about the quality guys, I will have to work on it for future had to shrink it to get it up inn Youtube, took me all day.

The quality may be a little bad I had to shrink it a lot o get it on youtube. Thanks everyone.

……. Hello everyone first let me start by saying my show Premiered last night after what seemed to be a tumble in the woods, it was an adventure. I still remember the 1st time I decided to do this show, I had big stars in my eyes thinking yeah I know all the right people to get this shit off the ground and I’m sure they’ll help me that was my first life lesson. I had a friend who was a director and I initially wanted him to help me with the project I’ve never produced anything before and he’s been in the business for a very long time, I called him and we arranged to meet on the day of the meeting I get to the location we agreed to meet at and he wasn’t there I called him and I swear to you this man said to me “Ummmm you were serious? I thought you were joking” Then after he realized I was heart-broken he said something like we can arrange to meet later because he was kind of busy at the moment, this was probably two years ago. That experience taught me that just because you know the right people and you’re friends with them on Facebook or even have them on your Blackberry messenger doesn’t means that you can ping them or poke them and they’ll come running.

When I shot the pilot episode in May of this year I can’t tell you how many things went wrong, finding the right editor and the right groove for my show had me like Goldie Locks tasting porridges but instead of 1,2,3 I went 1 through to 60 to find the perfect porridge.

Even before we premiered it I wanted to scrap episode 1 completely because I didn’t like it and there were too many mistakes in it, but I had to be realistic and I couldn’t waste content or money being as this project was majority being funded from my pocket, I weighed the pros and cons and I decided to go with it. I loved the support I was getting from the twitter family, and even the people who saw the flaws and pointed them out I love that, because I dont always see them all so getting that live feed back from people while the show was happening was really good, I literally had my notebook out taking notes, I wasn’t watching the show primarily because I have a rule about watching myself on tv and because I’m out of the country.

A lot of things are wrong but a lot of things are right, what’s important is that we find our own right and what makes us happy at the end of it all.

The Lauren O Lauren show airs Tuesdays at 9pm, with a repeat on Thursdays at 11pm and Saturdays at 9:30pm on Flow TV, Channel 100.

xoxoxoxo Lauren O Lauren, don’t let anyone fool you, you are the creator, leader and ruler of your destiny.

Oh my God! All my readers and twitter followers are like “Lauren you’ve gotten so soft, we don’t even recognize you”

I wanted to do this blog for all of you ladies out there, who are broken and really hurting, and just in that phase where you HATE men, I know I’ve been there and I’m not far from there I know and if this relationship I’m in doesn’t work out I’m just gonna go Rambo on Nigga’s and just walk around with an AK47 and be popping caps in everybody with a Dick.

I don’t regret anything, if I could live my life over I would do it all the same way even with the knowledge I have now because the person I am now has so much character and strength that I don’t wanna risk loosing those qualities to save a few broken hearts and a few tears.
My last relationship ended really badly, I was really vocal about it I still am, I’m not advising anybody to take the root that I took, I wish sometimes that I didn’t flip or lose my temper that way, but the good thing is I give all my boyfriend’s an alias’ and except for the guy I’m with now I keep them out of the public light and for the most part nobody knows who they are, I try not to date famous people for that specific reason, If you’re gonna be all up in my business it’s because I told you so not because it’s out there for you to see.

My last break up was really hard on me emotionally and physically it was the firs relationship to effect my body and my mind and it wasn’t because I loved him more than the rest, it was out of Ego and pride I just honestly couldn’t believe that it was happening to me again, i was disappointed by the last person I expected it from and that was what destroyed me, not the MAN himself, but the fucking situation repeating itself. Because Trust me when you meet somebody else you are going to wonder what the hell where you doing with that person in the 1st place, I loved every minute with my Ex, Loved it would do it over a million times even the crying in my room parts, the drinking till I’m unconscious bits, all he bull shit, but I love every second with my boyfriend now and I cannot see my life without him in it and I know every relationship prepared me for this moment, I wanna get married and have kids with him, I could see him being a great father to my daughters, he has no kids I have none so it’ll be the both of ours first and we’ll share those moments together even if our daughters grow up one day to be stripper bitches with bum ass boyfriends.

So don’t think I’ve gotten soft ladies, I’m just going through another phase in my life, I find myself reacting to situations differently, My 25th birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks and right now I’m like a powerful camera just putting myself in focus, I’ll give you an example.
When my ex and I broke up and months passed and I would wonder to myself why hasn’t he tried to contact me, or even apologize, he really hurt me you would think he would man up and say “Yo I’m sorry, I know i really hurt you” and when I did hear from him he sent me a message over two months ago and I say his name on my phone and i wasn’t even interested to read it, i read it a week after I got it and when i read it I was just like, I wish this dumb motherfucker didn’t even contact me, I wish he had just let me be and I just kept it moving, he didn’t even deserve a response from me cause he was just and still is a stupid motherfucker with no back bone and If i saw him tomorrow it hit me that I wouldn’t even remember what he looks like.

So ladies that’s my story I hope you can piece it together and make sense of it and hope I inspired you, don’t worry about the Loves you’ll lose, think about the love you haven’t found yet that is willing to return love to you.

xoxoxo Lauren O Lauren

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