Oh my God! All my readers and twitter followers are like “Lauren you’ve gotten so soft, we don’t even recognize you”
I wanted to do this blog for all of you ladies out there, who are broken and really hurting, and just in that phase where you HATE men, I know I’ve been there and I’m not far from there I know and if this relationship I’m in doesn’t work out I’m just gonna go Rambo on Nigga’s and just walk around with an AK47 and be popping caps in everybody with a Dick.
I don’t regret anything, if I could live my life over I would do it all the same way even with the knowledge I have now because the person I am now has so much character and strength that I don’t wanna risk loosing those qualities to save a few broken hearts and a few tears.
My last relationship ended really badly, I was really vocal about it I still am, I’m not advising anybody to take the root that I took, I wish sometimes that I didn’t flip or lose my temper that way, but the good thing is I give all my boyfriend’s an alias’ and except for the guy I’m with now I keep them out of the public light and for the most part nobody knows who they are, I try not to date famous people for that specific reason, If you’re gonna be all up in my business it’s because I told you so not because it’s out there for you to see.
My last break up was really hard on me emotionally and physically it was the firs relationship to effect my body and my mind and it wasn’t because I loved him more than the rest, it was out of Ego and pride I just honestly couldn’t believe that it was happening to me again, i was disappointed by the last person I expected it from and that was what destroyed me, not the MAN himself, but the fucking situation repeating itself. Because Trust me when you meet somebody else you are going to wonder what the hell where you doing with that person in the 1st place, I loved every minute with my Ex, Loved it would do it over a million times even the crying in my room parts, the drinking till I’m unconscious bits, all he bull shit, but I love every second with my boyfriend now and I cannot see my life without him in it and I know every relationship prepared me for this moment, I wanna get married and have kids with him, I could see him being a great father to my daughters, he has no kids I have none so it’ll be the both of ours first and we’ll share those moments together even if our daughters grow up one day to be stripper bitches with bum ass boyfriends.
So don’t think I’ve gotten soft ladies, I’m just going through another phase in my life, I find myself reacting to situations differently, My 25th birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks and right now I’m like a powerful camera just putting myself in focus, I’ll give you an example.
When my ex and I broke up and months passed and I would wonder to myself why hasn’t he tried to contact me, or even apologize, he really hurt me you would think he would man up and say “Yo I’m sorry, I know i really hurt you” and when I did hear from him he sent me a message over two months ago and I say his name on my phone and i wasn’t even interested to read it, i read it a week after I got it and when i read it I was just like, I wish this dumb motherfucker didn’t even contact me, I wish he had just let me be and I just kept it moving, he didn’t even deserve a response from me cause he was just and still is a stupid motherfucker with no back bone and If i saw him tomorrow it hit me that I wouldn’t even remember what he looks like.
So ladies that’s my story I hope you can piece it together and make sense of it and hope I inspired you, don’t worry about the Loves you’ll lose, think about the love you haven’t found yet that is willing to return love to you.
xoxoxo Lauren O Lauren
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